On Good Things and Green Spaces

I have a few stories to tell:

Story 1: January was the longest month ever.  It was cold, dark, slow, and confusing.  February, however, was the fastest month ever (I swear I saw time fly).  It was challenging yet unbelievably rewarding.  Life is full and busy.  Now, here I am at the beginning of March with many things to say but little time to write.

Story 2: Good things are happening.  I hope you are experiencing this in your life, too.  There have been times in the past few weeks/months where I have felt uncertain and insecure in my worth in various spheres, but God has consistently sent me reassurance of his sufficiency and grace.  An unexpected award, scholarship, and important interview have been offered to me.  I have had many causes for celebration in the past few weeks and I am so thankful for that.  The good things that are happening are a reminder that hard work, consistency, and honour do still matter even though the gratification we receive from them is rarely instant.

Story 3: I love stargazing.  Watching the sky at night has always had a way of putting me at ease.  Maybe it is because sometimes I feel that my life is suspended like a star in a vast emptiness; but like a star, I have been placed with a purpose by a God who loves me.  I spent some time searching the skies tonight--walking, praying, and working on thought-projects.  Despite being swamped with work there is nothing right about depriving oneself from halcyon moments such as stargazing.  Perhaps someday, like the stars, I might bring light or comfort or peace or guidance to someone who needs it.  I hope so. 

Story 4: I have been dreaming--in every sense of the word.  It's interesting, because dreaming is not something I find myself doing often.  Yet, my head is spinning with plans and potential paths for this summer and beyond.  I am hoping for one thing in particular, but trusting that I will end up in the place that is right for me.  When I dream, I go to a place "deep within my memory where the grass grows to my knees."  It is one of the places I went to dream as a child--in it all things are possible and adventure is imminent.  I picture it to be like the place David was led in Psalm 23: "he makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul."  It is so good to be in this green space.

Story 5: There is much more I could say about all of these things, but I think I will save my thoughts for a rainy day. 

Hope all is well,

E

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Current listenings:

Feist: Metals
Billy Joel: The Hits
The Rocket Summer: Calendar Days
Etta James: Life, Love, and the Blues
John Lennon: Plastic Ono Band